I feel it.... I feel the Cosmos

5:44pm: Just thought I'd share
So the other night while I was working this girl runs into the store and screams she needs an ambulance before she turns around and leaves. So the head clerk had me call her an ambulance. I will say i felt reluctant to do so since she had no wounds nothing really seemed wrong with her other than her acting like a rude bitch.

Anyway while I'm calling the ambulance she comes back and demands to use the store phone. Which the head clerk allows her to do. She calls up one of her friends and starts talking to them. I wasn't close enough to hear what it was about, except there was one point where she was obviously being a bitch to the person on the other line. The ambulance gets there and our head clerk tells her that she has to talk to them since they came for her and she rolls her eyes at him! But iguess by that time her friend on the phone had hung up on her since she started shouted "Penny!" into the phone before almost throwing it at the head clerk. She finally starts talking to the ambulance guys and they take her out of the store.

After a bit I asked the head clerk what was wrong with her since there didn't seem to be anything physically wrong with her but he was close enough to hear what she had been saying to her friend that had hung up on her.

Apparently her boyfriend had been cheating on her, with men. And she apparently believed that she had caught some horrible disease that would kill her within minutes I guess....

Now I've had guys cheat on me with women, does that mean i should have flipped out and gotten an ambulance to come out to make sure I didn't combust? Just wondering is all....

3:11am: So.... Yeah, not dead. But really that's about it. Work and sleep, it really sucks. Haven't been out much. A few new stories to tell, but I'll get to those another time. Also going to Disneyland here in a few weeks with one of my coworkers and her wife.

Btw I should be cleaning my apartment, but..... I don't feel like it.

Also don't sleep with married men, it gets awkward when their wives come home. It would have been more awkward had I not already had my clothes back on.... Just wanted to share that.

1:58pm: Blizzcon!
Yup, that's right I'm packed and good to go. Just waiting on Derek to pick me and Shaun up then off to Anaheim!

I told my boss I needed a few days off and he asked me why. I told him I was going to L.A., he asked if I was going to Disneyland. I told him no I was going to Blizzcon... Then he asked me what that was and I had to explain to him what WoW was and that I was going to hang out with a bunch of people I knew from the game. He asked me if I hung out with these people all the time. Lol no, they live in Canada and Washington, never met them before in person. He shook his head and laughed.

11:31pm: yeah so I guess all I do is steal quizzes, so sue me.

You are a Social Liberal (61% permissive) and an... Economic Moderate (43% permissive) You are best described as a: Centrist Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid Also : The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

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2:50pm:

Take the Magic: The Gathering 'What Color Are You?' Quiz.

4:25pm:
My Personality

Neuroticism	79
Extraversion	18
Openness to Experience	40
Agreeableness	36
Conscientiousness	59

You often resist any cravings or urges that you have, but sometimes you give in, however you feel enraged when things do not go your way. You are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter if you think you are being cheated. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition. You will help others if they are in need. If people ask for too much of your time you feel that they are imposing on you, however you feel superior to those around you and sometimes tend to be seen as arrogant by other people. You have a strong sense of duty and obligation, and feel a moral obligation to do the right thing.

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11:26am: Ha! Not dead.
Okay sadly that's all I really wanted to say. Lol. Still pretty much just working and sleeping and there's not enough space on the internet to rant about Safeway.

9:55pm: Wheee!!! Drunken post
Okay maybe not drunken but really buzzed. Isn't it sad that I've only updated now since you know like four months (maybe more). Dunno, I don't ever really have much to say, I vent a lot a work so maybe that's why I don't post as much, I don't feel the need to vent here on LJ. Which is I guess the reason for having one since I usually just assume that there's really no one that wants to read my posts. Though to be honest I really do check my friends page almost every day when i get the chance. I just don't comment a lot because I don't really don't know what to say, or I don't know if people really want my 2-cents.

But yeah for the most part I sleep, work and play video games with the occasional outing. I mean there's drama that happens but usually I'm not the focal point of it so I don't feel that those that are the focal point want me to talk about it since aside from being slightly or even greatly affected by it it's not really my story to tell, and I feel if I tell it it will cause a disservice to those involved (i.e. Eddie's marriage, which i will speak nothing more about) or that others have already covered it and I don't want to seem a bore by repeating the story (i.e. our trip to the ren faire last week).

So yeah. That's my excuse for not posting very often, hell I don't even remember what my last post was about, though I guess if I really wanted to know I'd just have to look it up. But my buzzed stupor kinda makes me not feel like it.

8:28pm: Ahaha wow
So I just spent a few hours reading some of my previous journal entries. Just wow, there are things in here I don'y even remember, the typos glare horribly at me. But meh, I'm sure there will be typos on this entry too. Lol. Life really does go by awefully fast no doesn't it. The earlier ones don't even feel like it was me writing them, the ones during the moving from my parents kinda made me laugh and sad at the same time. I had such aspirations and knew almost nothing of being a "responisble adult". I thought having a job would be difficult; that it would be hard to find one. But now i know (and you know, knowing is half the battle) what it is to be free of my parents, to be independant. I was so spoiled and had it so good, I took so much for granted.

Don't get me wrong, I could NEVER move back in to my parents, not only because I would instantly lose my independance, but because it would make things HARDER for them. I love them so much and I couldn't do that to them even though i know it would make them so happy if I were to even move back home, which mind you they ask me alsmost every time I see them. And though I may hate my job, hate some of the circumstances in my life. I will not give up the experinces that I have here, no matter how much things may anger me, how much they might depress me. There is always something to look forward to, something that makes my world brighter and more bearable. I might say every ten minutes that I hate my work, and don't get me wrong there are so many things wrong with it, It's still a part of me.

I will say now that I really, REALLY miss school and that I do regret not giving it my all, I never realized how terrribly easy it is do do school work (though granted you do not get paid for it like you do actual work). I realized that there were a lot of opportunities that I let slip through my fingers because I thought it would be difficult or because I didn't "feel" like giving it my all. And yes that makes me sad, but it also teaches me how much I've grown, how much I've learned. That there are a lot of things that we paint ourselves into a corner, convince our selves it's too difficult, too demanding, when the price is no where near the cost we make it in our minds.

5:44pm: hey lookie been a while since i too a quiz
Your results:
You are Apocalypse

Apocalypse 65% Mystique 57% Magneto 57% Dr. Doom 54% Lex Luthor 52% Juggernaut 49% Mr. Freeze 44% Poison Ivy 44% Kingpin 43% Dark Phoenix 42% The Joker 38% Green Goblin 37% Venom 34% Two-Face 33% Catwoman 29% Riddler 19%

You believe in survival of the fittest and you believe that you are the fittest.

Click here to take the Super Villain Personality Test


Haha, of course i get the concieted arrogant dictator type guy.

10:51am: So I guess a ot of things have happend.... and really not that much at all has happend at the same time. Lol. Yes I play too many online games now. I kinda stopped playing WoW, been playing lotr Online for a little over a week now. It's got all the thing right that D&D online didn't get irght, but i am sad that there isn't a mage class.

Anyways I performed another marriage. Kinda short notice not a big ceremony, as a matter of fact they showed up at my apartment on thursday morning and wanted me to marry them then and there, but we needed a witness to sign the marriage licence. And Shaun was at work so they waited till we got back to their place, and yes I'm talking about Eddie and Nikara. So in case they didn't call to tell you they got married, well umm... they got married.

Other than that not much has really happend to me, more and more it's just work and sleep. I've become a total hermit I'm so burned out on people here in Sac. I think it's because all the friends I have made here are nothing like my old friends, the ones I really consoder to be my friends. All the people I've met here are either through Eddie or Shaun and whilst I enjoy good drink from time to time, it seems that all these friends here in sac can do is either get high or drunk, and then have sex, I guess that's just not the kind of frineds I'm really looking for. Lol I guess I need some friends of my own, but I really don't like to socialize ahaha. So maybe hermitage it is for me then!

12:01am: So Shaun, Phil and I went to go see Aqua Teen Hunger Force Colon Movie Film for Theaters. We drove all around Sac looking for a theater that was playing it. None were. This pissed us off, but since we didn't want to go home without seeing a movie, we went to see, the Grindhouse. Which was actually a lot more entertaining than i thought it would be. Granted the first movie wasn't as good as a real zombie movie should have been it was still mildly entertaining. The second was better. It had a much better way of drawing you into the story and was more tense than the first. I think the problem with the first movie was that it was only 90 minutes when it could have been quite a bit longer and have drawn a bit more empathy from the audience than it did. Since the second was able to get you to empathize with the characters a bit more it pulled off the story better. Either way both were entertaining and I actually felt it wasn't a waste of time and money. Though tomorrow we plan on going to Davis to see Aqua Teen, since I believe that is the closest theater showing it.

3:12pm: Haha
So maybe i was a bit rash in the moving thing ( and no that doesn't mean a don't intend to). It is a little late for me to apply without the use of a car to get all the transcript things in order, that and i lack the general funds atm. Damn bills keeping me down! Anyways I still plan on it now, just moving my timetable back a bit. I'd say Novemberish... Gah holding onto money is getting to be more and more a problem. I'm not even spending that much anymore, pretty much bills and wow now... was thinking that maybe it's time to stop the WoW but I really can't bring myself to do that. I'd lose even more contact with my friends that I never get to see anymore.

8:29pm: Hmm....
So I think i've decided. I want to move. I PLAN to move. Six Months from now is the plan. England. A new place, maybe even a new me. Do I know exactly what I will do? No. But tisn't that the point. I think moving to Sacramento has been good for me. But I think it's time has come and gone. I need to get out on my own, do my own thing, I will miss my friends and family, but I also think it's something I need to do for myself.

5:48pm: To Move or Not?
So I packed up most of Eddie's stuff and it's sitting in the kitchen. Got the apartment kinda clean, but i can only do so much atm. That and I caught a cold off of shaun. You'd think i'd be less likey to get colds from him now since he's in the other room.

So I was talking to Zatanee the other day and she was saying that she needed to decide upon an art school to go to. She asked me if I would be her roommate if she moved somewhere else. I told her it depended upon where it was. I guess she has a few choices: San Francisco (no), New York (also a no), Maine (possibly a yes) and England (hells yes). Hell I'm thinking of moving now as it is, I might just save up money, pick up roots and go somewhere. I never realized it before since i lived with my parents and then i was dependant on Eddie, but I can go anywhere I fucking want. Anywhere. Wow that's a nice thing to realize. Granted things might be tough at first, but who fucking cares, it's my choice! Right?

4:20pm: Isn't that just my luck I go on my vacation and get sick, well better sick with nothing to do then sick with work to do I guess.

P.S. I'm also rather pissed at Blizzard for trying to make us transfer servers, i just paid not 5 months ago to transfer to the server i'm on now they're telling us to transfer to another server or risk just randomly getting transfered. That's such bs!

8:51pm: Hahaha I went from pissy to pretty damned good in about 5 minutes
Yeah I was hella pissy a few minutes ago, but Eddie and his girlfriend left so I'm not listening to them have sex, and even though I'm supposed to be I'm not at Lisa's listening to Shaun and Lisa have sex. Hmmm... maybe I would be less pissy if I'm not HEARING people have sex every like 30 minutes. Imagine that. Hmm... But I could watch some gay porn and listen to them have sex.... Nah did that already today.

Now if only they'd give me a night of sex free noise. Not that I'm sure that made any sense.

Maybe it's time for me to watch some more Magic Knights Rayearth. Wait where the fuck does Rayearth come into their name?!?!?

8:45pm: I can't write a motherfucking thing to save my life. I just rewrote a paragraph 3 fucking times, this is so frustrating. Shit I'm even having trouble trying to write in this damned journal. Maybe I'm over thinking things a bit too much maybe I'm just in a pissy, hurt mood and I'm no good at writing in such a mood. Fuck it I'm going to bed.

8:37pm: So not quiet as bummed as i was earlier
Yeah i was feeling pretty miserable earlier, don't quiet as much now, but i do feel a bit stood up, oh well.

Hahaha I'm pathetic aren't I?

5:18pm: Gah, i'm so fucking bored right now. I really need to get my licesne, it's driving me up the walls. Ah well, I'll just live with it for now. Damn my typing has gotten WORSE since playing wow, I barely capitalize anything now.

2:37pm: Wow, I suck
So it's the first time in a while that i've tried, TRIED, to sit down and write. I mean if I have a few spare minutes at work I'll write a page or two in one of my numerous notebooks, scrap the story and just leave it there. But I was trying to write just a few minutes ago and horrible dribble made it's way from my fingertips to the computer. It's so bad I don't even know where to begin. Ah well, I need to keep at it.

I'm tired of work, fuck, I'm tired of being an adult (not that I act like one much). It's so fucking frustrating! Gah!

6:14pm: So I've decided that when I'm on my vacation in two weeks I WILL accomplish two things. Get my drivers license and find a new job. I'm sick of Safeway, sick of being told to do other peoples job and then get bitched at because I have to time to do my own. FUCK YOU Safeway. I WILL get my goatee back you bitches.

4:19pm: New Years
So I guess it's a new year and all that, just means I'm gonna write 2006 on all my dates until about mid august, then I'll get it right.

Ever anti-social me actually went out last night, over to Lisa's again, where I got drunk, shuan was completely wasted and Eddie for the most part was sober because he wanted to come home after the celebration was over.

So I've been seeing this guy, but I really don't know what's going on. I think it's because the two of us are so unaggressive when it comes to such things that we really don't know if we are "seeing" each other or not. So there's something that's at least a little frustrating for me. You know 6 years without a relationship at all and here I don't know if I'm in one.... haha. Oh well I'll eventually figure things out.

Anyways, I'm gonna get ready to go get some food and stuff.

10:14pm: Ahahahaha so I decided to use this thing for once
I guess it might be because I'm bored. But then again if I was really that bored I could be out drinking with some friends. Yes I said it, after 2 years here in sacramento I made new friends (they can't replace the old ones but hey, new friends are good too). But alas I am broke and while I might get Monkey to buy me a drink or five, the poor boys bought enough drinks for me already, I kinda feel bad about it.

God I miss writingm this feels good to do once in a while, but I guess I should do it more often. I'm just over worked most of the time and on WoW. Changed servers btw. Transfered my forsaken mage to moonrunner, but been playing a gnome mage on gilneas for about a week now. Can't wait for the burning crusade. I wants me an emo blood elf pally damnit!

Work is special to say the least, still the customer service booth manager, and it's getting more tiresome each day. They have me doing payroll now and they want me to learn how to write the schedual for the store which is strickly the store manager's job. I guess that means they think I'm competent enough to do that.

Damnit someone remind me to prereg for fanime this year so I don't spend an arma and a leg for a freaking one day pass again.

Hahaha ADD rearing it's ugly head again as I jump from point to point.

I think I'll call it a night and take a shower got work at 6 tomorrow, I doubt I'll go out, Ed's already out at the Riley's and Shaun went to the Y so he's coming home around 12 drunk as hell. Ah well.

9:35pm: ( My Interests Collage! )